The Thing About Blogs

I'm in a bit of a dilemma at the moment in regards to blogging. Part of me kind of likes it, particularly the ease of adding photos/vids etc and being able to share the info with friends and family but part of me is getting frustrated as all hell. I miss the actual 'writing' that I did when I used a diary. I'm finding it frustrating too because I share my computer with teenagers and just about every time I feel like writing the computer is in use and by the time it's free I'm too tired(night time) or too busy(day time) to be bothered and then when I finally do get on I've forgotten what I want to say or the moment has passed and it feels like old news. So I'm wondering if maybe I might pull my old faithful out for all the random, nutty stuff I need to get off my chest and just post occasionally when something news worthy crops up. I don't know, maybe I just spend too much time worrying about things that just aren't worth worrying about.

Just passing thru

Haven't got time to write. Wish I did. Hope to be back soon. I really hate being this busy!

What a week!

I can't believe I'm actually sitting down. So much has been happening lately. I don't think I've had one day or evening this week where there hasn't been something on. Lets see...
Saturday: Yankee Auction from 6 am to 9 pm. Biggest fundraiser for scouts for the year
Sunday: Trip to the vet because Tigger ripped her skin on a broken branch. $193 for 30 min
work!
Lots of gardening
Monday:Parent help at school, catch up on housework because I was laid up last week with the
flu.
Tuesday: Paperwork, paperwork and more paperwork. Drama classes after school for Abby,
basketball training for Nick
Wednesday: school excursion with gr 3/4 to science centre. visit uncle who is in town for 2 days.
Cubs in the evening
Thursday: Shopping, bills, emails, blah, blah, blah.
Basketball game for Nicky, tutoring for Beth
Gr 8, 9, 10 options night at the high school
Friday: Work
Scout function at footy club for World Festival
Pack for basketball tournament on Sat and JOTA on Sat night.
Ok so there were a few hours free. Shit, I'm going to bed. I'm stuffed!

Wilderness Programs

Ok I'm a little excited. I was recently invited to participate in the development of a Wilderness based program for kids/families down the West Coast. This website gives a bit of an overview.
www.wildernessprogram.tas.gov.au
I'm going to die from embarrassment if anyone involved in this actually reads this post, but what the hey. Have to get this off my chest. I know I don't have all the uni qualifications that a lot of the facilitators already involved have, but I do have heaps of enthusiasm and that's got to count for something right? If I had my way I'd have been doing this work years ago, hence the reason for joining Scouts, but things just didn't work out that way. So anyway I thought maybe I can boost my confidence a bit by listing all the positives I could bring to the program.
1. Mother for 24 years
2. Solo bushwalker for 15 years
3. SES trained for 12 months including some abseiling, remote search and rescue, RAR
4. Cub scout leader for 5 years, currently about to start training at Scout level. Training has included, public speaking, bushwalking, knots, ropes and shelter construction, outdoor cooking, abseiling, first aid and Certificate of Adult Leadership.
5. Over 10 years involvement on various levels with Ulverstone Community House.
6. 20 years worth of parent help, assisting with reading programs, arts/craft and excursions.
7. Computer literate, learning to develop websites.
8. Current licence
9. Love learning
10. Not afraid to admit when I'm wrong

Downside to all of this...
Underestimates ones worth

Looking forward to climbing a few more mountains, literally and figuratively

Love and Light

Annie

My brothers birthday

Hey everyone, it's my baby brothers birthday on the 14th so I thought I'd give him a plug. Here's his new website.
http://www.gcinteriorsolutions.com.au/index.html

Loneliness

Dear J
Why is it that we can be surrounded by so many people and yet still feel so overwhelmingly lonely? Is it the lack of that one special person with whom we can bare our souls and truly be ourselves? Is it just the need to be able to talk to someone and share our worries without feeling like we are burdening ourselves onto them? Or is it a deeper need, borne from a lack of satifaction within ourselves?
Some days I feel truly at peace with the universe. I don't need anyone else and I know that no matter what happens I will always be able to find my way. Then there are the days like today, where I find myself crying for that one special person to hold me and tell me that I am loved and wanted and that my place in the universe is secure because they believe it, even when I don't. I know I am not alone in this need, but I am alone in my need and I wish I could find you.
Love and Light
Annie

One Step Closer

Well I'm nearly on top of the dead tree cleanup. It would have happened sooner but I came down with the flu again and was bedridden for nearly a week. A friend turned up weekend before last and chainsawed the worst of it for me. Now I just have to trim up all the branches and make faggots out of the twigs and she's all over. I'm thinking I should have just got it all removed but what's done is done and I'm sure I'll appreciate it next year when the mercury drops again. I just wish I could get a bit more motivated. I'm sitting here typing this and thinking "I really would like to get out and garden" but the depression has a firm grip at the moment and I just can't seem to give it the shove. Well anyway, it's not that great a day outside. Think I'll tackle that new book I bought.